Want to get rid of the annoying adverts? The answer is simple. There are 4 levels of advertising on AnimeOTK:

**Thomas_III** · July 30th, 2013, 02:52 AM

“If you were truly listening, Roni, you’d know that it’s time for you to put that one time behind you. One time isn’t enough to affect your entire life as a Jedi. I know that, and every master knows that. The only reason that this has continued to be a problem for you is because you’ve allowed it to be. Each time that you let yourself take the blame, you made yourself look that much more untrustworthy. You should have stood up for yourself when it wasn’t your fault, and they’d have learned to trust you. Instead, you made it worse for yourself every time that you took the blame.”

Eldton continues to snuggles her softly, but turns her to look into her eyes, lifting her chin so she has to meet his gaze.

“Do you understand?”

**NoiselessKnife** · July 30th, 2013, 03:50 AM

"A...at first I never took the blame, sir" She muttered with a sigh. "I...I was listening, but...but no m...matter how I...I've tried, no one wi...will ever forget that, much l...less let me forget" She whispered while clenching her teeth. "F...for them, for the Masters, it's not just once, it has been a... a lot of times... a lot of times that I've had a ...an attitude unworthy of...of a Jedi apprentice" She took a sharp breath and clenched her hand further.

"I...I never ac...accepted the blame at first... I did try, I ...I spoke, I...I tried t...to prove that I...I wasn't the one who did wh..whatever was wrong after the...the fight. There were never enough profs an...and n...no one believes you when t...there are "witnesses" of what you did... much less when y...you are not like...like the others. T...The Masters were alway...always disappointed on ..h...how much I lied, h...how could t...the others be calm when I...I was s....so upset if t...they had d...done it? It w...wasn't logical" She grumbled, frowning more. "Y...you get it w...worse if you lie, a...and then you g...get it from them f...for opening your mouth at all" She half growled, half angrily.

She sniffed and shook her head a bit. "You l...learn to b...be quiet a...and s...stop "lying" if...if that's what the M...Masters want, i...it's easier, t...they just p...punish you and is done, it...it's faster and t...then you can be...be left alone. T...that's better" She said then, relaxing a tad. "T...there were never profs a...anyway, the o...others knew how to ne...never leave profs, l...like today, i...if you wanted a ...a... prof I'd have none, if...if you ask them they'll just deny it... and...and you'd believe them, c...cuz... there's no guilt in them, n...no anger, t...they are good padawans. An...and when t...there are profs is irrelevant, t...the profs are jus...justa accidents, m...most of the times s...something that happens normally, they b...become profs of ho...how bad you a...are at something, e...either at b...being good, at staying s...still in a class n...no matter what, a...at sensing things or a...at training"

Sighing a bit she felt his snuggles and leaned to him, still crying and returning a bit of the affection, something she was not used to do, but seemed to come out of instinct.

"I...I am truly listening, b...but it's...it's not just l...like that, sir" She whispered as he made her look to him, she resisted a bit then let her hand fall, following his unspoken order, her eyes were teary and salty water ran from them to her cheeks, she was frowning lightly and sniffing, her breathing disturbed but not sobbing.

"T...that's w...why I t...thought they had the right, th...that's why I thought they were right... c...cuz if they belong here and...and have it all... easier, then... then maybe they are right and I...I s...shouldn't be...be here, an...and that's why they are the best, and...and I'm not... "

**Thomas_III** · August 3rd, 2013, 11:23 PM

Eldton sighs deeply, getting highly tired of hearing her talk about how she’s so damned powerless. A Jedi is never without options, and she’s apparently come to believe that she has none. That just doesn’t sit right with him.

“Well, that settles it. I’m removing you entirely from the general classes. From this point forward, you’ll study with me exclusively, or with a master that I personally approve to teach you. If you’re not around the other padawans, then you won’t be able to compare yourself to them. Simple as that.”

**NoiselessKnife** · August 4th, 2013, 01:16 AM

A Jedi might never be without options, but she's not a Jedi, a Jedi can say "fuck you all" in metaphorical terms and walk away, like Dooku and several others had done, even return home if they knew where that was, a Jedi can do something bad and get just talked down, at most sent to a fringe world, a Jedi can choose to be in the other part of the battle and continue his life knowing that he wasn't cut for the Jedi, but a padawan can just bow down and keep walking, accept punishments, even corporal if the masters' please, accept everything unless said padawan had a great way to hide feelings, which the kid in front of him hadn't, a padawan has two choices only, be the best and enjoy impunity as long as they didn't mess with their master, as Ashek and Khula, or be middle ground, accept what was coming to them and act for the Masters the best they could, else they would be sent away to the Corps and, without healing powers, they would be working in what before was a labor for slaves for the rest of their lives, that might have slipped his mind. What he has there is a child, more-so, the runt of a litter of padawans and the receiving end of most of their pranks.

She looked at him and sighed, not sure of how to feel by his words, yes, that was great, in fact quite good, but it felt like something he would not be able to do, and even if he managed, something that should not be done. She didn't know but she was half right, it was running away from the other kids, she was an outcast already, getting her away would alienate her from the others in future years, furthermore if he expected her not to have any contact with them at all.

"I...I'm no...not comparing myself, s...sir" She sighed. "Y...you asked me, well, told me th...that I should ha...have proven th...that it was not my fault and...and that I should trust you... I....I was just telling you why" She muttered, not really sure if he was listening to her now. "Y...you told me I...I should trust the other M...Masters as I...I trusted you, i...it's the other w...way around, I trusted you as I...I trusted them, as...as I've trusted anyone my whol...whole life, t...telling you what I did wrong an...and shutting up from blaming anyone, c...cuz I had no profs, y...you got offended, a...and I didn't understand why at the b...beginning, sir" The young padawan muttered.

What option did he really thought she had? Telling the masters was earning a punishment, telling others was getting mocked, accusing the bullies was a punishment for lying due having no profs, answering with violence was a punishment for being violent, telling him had just proven to be another punishment anyway, and whatever he did it wouldn't work, he could speak about going to the other Master's, yes, they would believe him, maybe half scold the kids, the moment the kids were left alone with Roni they would punish her for being a tattle tell, the council was not really trusting on her already, two outbursts of violence and dark side, she was lucky to even be there, unless either Plo Koon or Yoda had a solution there was not much to be done, he could not punish the kids himself beyond punishing his padawan, just as the others couldn't punish his padawan at all, it was a rule, and yet removing her was alienating her more than she already was, making her look weak more than she already looked.

"I...I was j...just saying that th...that's what I thought when...when you asked me why I...I had hit them, I...I thought that y...you were like the other M…Masters an…and wanted me to…to say that I w…was wrong s…so you could punish me… an...and then I...I realized that if th...the other padawans don't get p...punished, almost never...well, never, while I...I get punished everyday a...almost, then i...it's because they are better... bu...but now I'm not that sure about what to think" She said, honestly, she was just tired, everything she did unless it was in droids was wrong, everyone punished her for doing something bad, even him the first day.

It was tiring and quite upsetting to be punished everyday.

Another idea came and it made her frown, he could feel an anger grow deeply, scratching on her mind like claws. “W…what I…I think i…is that if I’m not there t…to…” Ah dam it already. “T…to be their “little…little toy” they…they’ll take it on…on Ilena, just like th…they promised they’d do if I…I keep being near her” She growled.

Her gaze changed whenever she talked about that, most of the time it was that of a kid who has just given up and just accepts everything that comes, or someone who hates their life yet have to live it, here there was something dangerous in her gaze, if that happened, exile or not, she would take all the rage that was there inside her and onto the bullies heads.

This couldn’t continue like that, either they three exploded in a contained place or this would end up badly for all three, separating them would just delay it, even if it might calm Roni down a bit.

**Thomas_III** · August 9th, 2013, 04:09 AM

Eldton tries to listen to his young padawan’s rambling thoughts for the extent of her speech. However, he finally moves a hand to her lips, pressing his finger to them to silence her. As far as he’s concerned, he’s heard more than enough.

“So, you’re telling me that they threatened Ilena? You didn’t think that this was important enough to tell me or her master? If they’re threatening someone, then something needs to be done about it. You don’t just stay quiet and let these things happen. If they’re willing to bully one person, they’re not going to stop just because you are willing to take it. They’ll eventually bully someone else.”

He is very disappointed in her right now.

**NoiselessKnife** · August 9th, 2013, 04:26 AM

Roni frowns at him, she told him the whole story, connecting with him, and he didn't listen... not one word it seems, she quiets then and looks down.

"Y....you s...s...said I...I wasn't trusting you... I...I just did" She whispered. "I...In a....all forms I...I could" The child said, looking away. "I...I told you e...everything, e...even that, t...two minutes ago, s...sir" She got quiet then, she had not hidden anything from him, she couldn't with the connection they had built when she closed her eyes and opened to him, and yet he had not listened. Maybe he had the right not to listen but... but she had thought that forming a connection would mean to listen to the other, and she had done her best to listen to him. "A....And i...I told you w...why I didn't tell anyone else, t...they'll only punish me... I have n...no profs, n....no one believes me without profs, I....I con...confirmed that two weeks ago" Maybe it's because he never was a Temple kid, he doesn't know the rules, you shut up and lower your head unless you have profs, you fear masters and bow down unless you're the best, then you brag and prove yourself.

He doesn't know about that, and it seems that she has to tell it to him in several forms and yet he doesn't seem to care, she's confused about him now, and he can feel that. She cares about him as to do anything for him, even speak when it would just get her a punishment again... but he doesn't seem to be really listening. She does not judge him in anyway, she has no right, nor will ever have it, but she did tell him, barely five minutes ago.